Contemplating

   CHANGE OF PLANS
HALF CANCELED??
As of today I will have missed yet another 2 days. It's strange how hard it can be sometimes to find time to do this blog. and I kind of feel like I was being very strict with myself. This is all happening so soon. I have only been doing this for about a month. What I want more than anything is recognition from these people that have inspired me so much. I want to have recognized appreciation for everything they have done. Yet, I feel so limited. I focus so much on the drawing I have to do everyday that it takes so much away from other art I want to do. I feel like maybe I'm jsut being to strict, or this shouldn't be a year long this. I had an idea of doing it every other month for a year. I feel like it would give me time to refresh and I could still do it for a year. I just feel like for what I'm doing..well.. it is very challenging and I don't think I can manage it all. But! I still really want to do this. It's early on in this blog, I don't really have a fallowing. If I want to make changes I should do so now, but I can't help feeling disappointing.  It's important to challenge yourself, but you don't want to destroy yourself in the process. It could be hard to understand for some people because it doesn't seem like much of a task. You'd be surprised at how much of a toll the simple things can take on a person. This is something I really want to continue, and I definitely will  but I think I need to start a little smaller(which does sincerely disappoint me). I hope anyone who has decided to fallow my "journey" won't lose faith in me for this. Thank you for all the support! (as little as it is it is very important to me so thank you)
THIS BLOG IS FOR VISUAL KEI
     I think something I want to do is display more of what I can really do. My drawings will not just be portraits, but painting, drawings and renditions all inspired by the people I love in this Jrock realm.
something good that has come of this somewhat stressful month is how much I want to branch out in my skills and show what I can really do. I truly hope everyone looks forward to it..
 I STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M DOING BUT I'M MOVING FORWARD

Year of Visual Kei - Art Challenge - Day 23

 

Yuh ~ Vistlip

This should be day 24 but if anyone is checking up on this blog they will have noticed I did not post anything yesterday. This is because I had a headache all day at school and when I got home I threw up twice and went decided it was best I just go to bed. I tried to do something a little more today to hopefully make up for that. I thought this picture had more things to look at..I guess.. mostly because of the pic ball of light he is supposed to be holding. I guess I just thought the picture was cool and its more zoomed out than most of mine so.. I don't know.. more interesting! I feel much better now though by the way.. I am horrible at realistic clothes.. but my style is borderline not realistic so I feel like its okay if you know what I mean.. so yep! Yuh!

Year of Visual Kei - Art Challenge - Day 22

 

Rui ~ Vistlip

This was kind of lazily done but I actually like this one too. Lots happened today such as my sister coming home from Europe and everywhere because she travels a lot. Because of this I can't write much for this one. I have a lot of catching up to do!

Year of Visual Kei - Art Challenge - Day 21

 

Niya ~ Nightmare

I don't know what year this picture is from but I have a pretty recent magazine and he looks totally different (a SHOXX magazine to be exact). For some reason I have no memory of this guys voice.. Like.. I don't really remember what it sounds like but any sort of memory I have is of him either not talking or being really quiet. I'm probably gonna look up interview or something after this. He looks cool in this picture I think though. I really want that lip piercing! ! Aoi from the GazettE and Miyavi both had it and I have always loved it! Probably something my family will hate if I do.. But they didn't really like my hair and they just had to get use to it so HA! I don't know actually.. maybe someday.. But my mom said a couple years back I could get a facial piercing on my 16th..so she still owes me..Gonna hold her to it! !

Year of Visual Kei - Art Challenge - Day 20

 

Kamijo ~ Versailles

Kamijo does have a solo album.. or is he going solo? I can't remember but I saw an ad for it..online. He is way to pretty for anyone haha but it's actually crazy how beautiful this guys is and he still makes it manly! The hair was rather difficult for this. I don't feel I really captured it but there's always another day! Those eyes though! man.. I could be in awe of him all day.. Such a fairy tale prince~ (at least in looks)

Year of Visual Kei - Art Challenge - Day 19

 

Ruka ~ Nightmare

This guy was the first guy from Nightmare I really like. I thought he was super pretty. Which he most certainly is and! He's 6'1 which is a plus haha. But I was young and a weird fan service thing freaked me out and I got all weird for a while. I don't care anymore though haha still love him! And all of Nightmare. As I have said before, they were the first band I ever really really liked from Japan so they are very special. I actually really like the way this drawing turned out. It's more realistic that the others I feel. oh! Their new song ASSaulter is so so cool! I love it so much. I have listened to it sooo many times..like right now! Good job on capitalizing the first two letters nightmare.. totally didn't notice~

Year of Visual Kei - Art Challenge - Day 18

 

Tomo ~ Vistlip

I actually love this band. I don't listen to a lot of their music but I like them a lot. Something I really like is how, at least it seems, they aren't afraid of showing how they look without makeup. Most bands pretty much never show how they look without makeup. I guess its an image thing, but to me, the fact that they do makes them easier to relate to as people because you can see them more as themselves as apposed to this kind of..mysterious androgynous unobtainable being. That makes me chuckle a bit but I think you catch my drift.